2013, What a Ride
This year was filled with life lessons and challenges. But also full of new experiences that I will cherish forever.I loss my grandmother in the beginning of the year. She was one of the most selfless, loving and accepting person I've ever had the pleasure to know. I struggled with communicating with her because of the generation gap and the language barrier. Her death was sudden and caused a lot of pain for my family and every life that she has ever touched. You could consider her a saint but she'll always be my apo. She took care of me and helped me get on my feet when I first moved to New York. She looked after me and supported me in the first year I was there and beyond. I never realized or thanked her for how much she cared for me. I wanted to take something from this inevitable event from my life instead of being bitter and regretful. It brought my entire family closer together in a different way than before. It made me want to live my life as a better person though it's still something I struggle with. Thank you apo for sharing your love with everyone around you. I can only hope that one day I will be as great as you were.
Anyone who knows me knows that I am very driven especially in my career. Ever since I started working at the salon, it consumed me. My life was only work and it seemed like I had no time for anything or anyone else. I use to be bitter about the way I was treated along with my coworkers. Somehow as time went on thing's got easier because everyone around me constantly reminded me to let things go and to not think so much into everything. I am so thankful and grateful for my Fekkai family. I see all of you more than anyone and I am so happy that I get to laugh at work every single day. I hope I can continue to grow as a hairdresser and as a person with the help of everyone.
It seems like the events that happened this year had specific reasons and things happened with impeccable timing. My New York friends, where would I be without all of you? I spent most of my best days with you and I cannot wait to get more. Thank you for making this summer one of the best. I discovered myself and became more self aware than ever. Working to "be your own Kanye West" is probably one of the best things to do in life (seriously, you should try it). Always challenging yourself and pushing yourself to be the best you. I learned that I didn't have to be THE best, but the best version of myself. It's something that I want to keep on my mind everyday. This year was filled with some bomb-ass parties, lets keep going!
And alos, I love my fat butch.
Certain things happen when you least expect it. I never thought I'd meet anyone special or anyone that would make me experience feelings that I had no idea existed in me. I'd like to think that I am very caring but I just have a strange way of showing it. I always felt like I wanted to worry for someone else besides myself, but no one ever seemed right or deserving of that. When my colorist was injured this summer and my schedule with work opened up, so did I. Learning to step out of my comfort zone and breaking my daily routines not only reminded me of all the things I've never done before, but gave me an opportunity to meet new people and find a part of me I never knew existed. It's so bleh that I'm talking about this but you all know who I'm referring to. Since our first date, I have been on a fast track relationship and I only continue to love and care for him each day. I've never felt this connection with anyone and was terrified in the beginning. I was afraid of getting hurt, afraid that this was all very childish and unbelievable. His confidence in himself and in me gives me courage. I cannot wait to learn and grow with you.
Basically if you just skipped to the end, thank you to everyone who has been a part of my year of growth. Thank you to my California family, my New York family, and my Fekkai family. I cannot wait to take on 2014 with the attitude that I have developed from this year. It's time to unleash the new me and to continue to strive to be a better me. Lets make some memories whether it's good or bad, there's always something to learn and grow from.
Happy New Year to everyone and I hope 2014 is kind to you.
Don't forget to Carpe Diem
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