Let that be Enough
I am going to be honest and completely me in these next few moments... I've forgotten the meaning of sacrifice, grace, forgiveness, hope, joy and love, and probably a lot more things.Do you remember during summers of grade school when you would just forget everything you learned during the school year? Well, my summer began a long time ago and it is just not coming to an end. The longer this carries on, the more I am forgetting. When ever I find myself in the silence, the gears in my head seem to turn and I will just look back on the past few days and point out all the mistakes that I've done. I often find myself pointing out the times when I've been selfish or unloving to the people around me. I am constantly faced with my own words telling me to be a better student, friend, daughter, or person. And it's so hard to even ask for forgiveness with a whole trail of mistakes lined up right behind me.
I don't remember the last time I worshipped wholeheartedly. I know I want to. I want to be able to feel God's love again, to be amazed at the fact that He died on the cross for me. To know that He forgave my every sin. And know that even though every part of my life is falling apart, He's the only one that is able to keep me together. I'm sorry, I don't have any of that as of right now...
And now here I am, 2:30 AM with a stomach full of grande raspberry white mocha and eyes that are wide awake, a mind that wants to crash more than anything. Oh yeah, and an upset stomach. I don't even know why I'm posting this...
wish me luck, peace.
Let me know that you hear me, let me know your touch. Let me know that you love me, and let that be enough.
love-"it's the closest thing we have to magic."Labels: forgiveness, God, hope, joy, love, sacrifice
posted by airickahh @ 2:10 AM
1 Comments:
wow fur that was deep! seems like your summer has lasted more than it should and sounds like you're getting tired of walking through the desert. for some reason this made me think of taiwan and our moments there. i dont know why though. take a journey back on the walk He has brought you through and i hope that brings you to recall all the things you learned.
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